water/bed blues

maybe I needed this to happen    

so that i could wake up.

but anytime i'm awake

my mind is consumed.

do i drown in bed

or drown in my head

i do not know...

fill a void.

 i exist 

to fill a void 

in people’s lives. 

I am not 

special enough 

to be deserving

 of the world

but I am deserving enough

to be put up in hiding places 

stuffed in cracks and corners 

remembered for pleasure 

but forgotten for care.